Tuesday, January 22, 2013

longing for perfection

That time of the day when the blood sugar plummets, the clownery escalates, and yours truly fails to suffer fools gladly, the effervescent smile fading and I fail to camouflage emotions well without it, especially when dealing with all manner of absurdity in the form of general creeps or dudes whose game is being needy as hell which is not cute or endearing and gives me the airplane ears like few other things.

 When it's nothing too awful I should really suck it up, and I always feel so guilty after being bitchy even if it's warranted, there's no excuse to dish it back and no one looks good. I don't consider myself a perfectionist but I guess I am, in the sense that I really don't want to be a jerk and also I really don't want to get blowback from further ups who make mountains out of every available molehill either because that does happen, and the insecure's ego gets bruised most easily. So I'm sorry dudes. I should be more patient and gracious and hope that someday you grow up. And on my side, I need to not beat myself up so much and just try to minimize the jerkitude on my end. It was nothing bad, it just could be better.


  1. http://andywickspaints.files.wordpress.com/2012/11/mudlarks-green.jpg

  2. Confirmation that you really are the Worst Person Ever.

  3. http://ttbook.org/book/why-holes

  4. at least it got to be Friday so there must be some good music happening somewhere nearby

  5. I can't imagine you being "bitchy" to anyone, not really bitchy....just fed up bitchy and that's allowed when it is pointed at a needy jerk.

    Just delve into some Zombie Haiku and you'll feel better. Don't beat yourself up, it's not only painful, but a waste of time.

    Love the airplane ears kitty picture. I know that look from my daughter's cat who is diabetic and has to have his blood checked regularly. He knows.....even before the needle comes into view....someone is after his blood.